Sick as Death

Ok, that is a bit of an exaggeration. It's actually just a cold, I think. But when you are in your first trimester of a pregnancy and chasing around a toddler a cold freaking sucks.

At least I managed to get out and pick up some pedialyte and my prenatal. Did I forget to mention that W is sick too? Yeah he has a stomach bug. It hasn't seemed to slow him down much. 
I love my life and can't be happier right now. 4 days until my little boy is 1. I can't wait. I will post pictures of his birthday party.

Am I the only one who has ever taken stupid pictures of their little one? We had been setting up the tree that day and my husband decided to do this. It was just too priceless to NOT take a picture. I can't wait to see what W has to say about it when I show it to his first real girlfriend.

Today was a bad day. I hurt really bad and was so sleepy. I'm so thankful for my husband for letting me sleep today. He's a trooper. Little man W was a monster, but a happy monster so that makes me happy. I just wish he would slow down a little bit. In 13 days he is going to have blessed my life for a full year. Where did the time go? I swear just yesterday he needed me to hold his head up for him. 

I think that is the hardest part. Feeling like you are becoming obsolete. He doesn't need me for everything anymore and I miss feeling needed. Now he is crawling almost walking. I almost want him to start walking soon so that he will slow down for a little bit. That mister is FAST on four limbs.

I know my first few posts have been downers but I really am genuinely happy. I just seem to be having a small affair with Debbie Downer syndrome. I'm sure it will pass soon.

Getting to know me

Right now I feel trapped. It feels like no matter what I do it is the wrong decision and I'm surrounded by plastic wrap. I'm 23 years old. A wife, mother, and daughter. I am also pregnant with my second child. I'm trying to make things work. I'm trying to find a job but it seems that no one wants to give me an interview. 

I do know that despite how bad my situation feels right now everything is going to be ok. I have a husband who loves me so much, would and has done anything for me, the most beautiful son, and I am a strong woman. I can do anything.